There was a time in my life when I greeted a smile to people I met walking on the street, fellow passengers on any vehicle, or strangers passing by our house. And they smiled back. It was a nice time—no assumptions, no doubts in your heart—just a simple unadulterated smile. Somehow, through the passing of the years, the smile turns to a frown. And like everything else that is changing gradually, I didn’t realize it until I saw this girl on the bus.

That day, I was on the bus with Mark Galang. As the gentleman that he is, he also paid for my fare that day. He is such a kind-hearted guy. Bless him.

Well anyways, he pointed me this girl. But even before he mentioned the girl, I already noticed her the moment she came up the bus. There was something different about her. She greeted everyone with a smile. The driver knew her, the conductor knew her, and the street fruit-vendors knew her and even gave her some lanzones— it seemed that everyone knew her, apparently except me. She wasn’t that beautiful. I mean, not stunningly beautiful like Demi Moore or Catherine Zeta Jones, but she was nice to look at. At first, I raised an eyebrow at how she acted. Well, in the course of time, I’ve developed a negative attitude of doubting everyone’s intention. Well, I guess that would explain the frown.

Mark told me that they met the girl in Chowking, where he works. As I’ve suspected, the girl has a very high self-esteem. She is the kind who’d be the first one to approach you and introduce herself. She doesn’t need a middleman.

I’d like to have that kind of attitude. But then, you can’t help but to doubt everyone if you’ve been hurt too many times. I don’t know but… I just thought it would be nice to go back to the time when I don’t carry even a hint of a grudge to anyone—the time when I have a smile ready for everyone.

Currently listening to: the buzzing of the computer
Currently feeling: calm
Posted by CarizzCruzem on November 9, 2005 at 09:10 AM in My thoughts | fly with me

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