I'm here, standing in the middle of the road. I know which way to turn to and continue my journey. But I'm taking my time. After all, I don't want to go back here in the middle of the road when the road I choose gets tough.

There are some things that I must leave behind to lighten my heavy burden. Things that almost dragged me down in a mire. Things that I wouldn't have thought of leaving because they (or he?) have become a part of me. But continuing on my journey requires me to be right with my Best Friend and my Lord. As this thing has become a part of me, it would take some kind of a surgery to get it off me. I would bleed. But I know I'll be restored and come out a better and stronger person.

It hurts, of course. But no, I am not bitter. This is my choice and I'll take full responsibility of it. I am not blaming anyone. It's all my fault. I have wallowed on it too long. But, it's about time to stand up and get moving.

I am excited and nervous at the same time. I am once again clueless of what lies ahead. I've become accustomed to the way things are. I've actually accepted as a fact that I am hopeless. But I cannot throw away my life just like that. Somebody is now looking up to me and waiting which way to go to next. I am clueless, but I know I'll be well taken care of. I know the road I choose to go to is not entirely paved, but I am confident and I know this is the right way... His way.

I am left with this teeny-weeny bit of a sweet thing piggybacking me. I am now ready to walk again, head held up high with sure steps and a small bundle of joy having forty winks peacefully and contentedly on my back. I know I won't be alone. I am walking with Jesus.

My journey continues...

Currently listening to: It Is Well
Currently reading: The Purpose Driven Life
Currently feeling: content
Posted by CarizzCruzem on April 2, 2006 at 01:55 AM in My thoughts | 3 flew with me

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Comment posted on July 30th, 2006 at 10:18 PM
Uh-huh, I certainly know the feeling of being at a crossroad.

It's not easy to make a decision, especially if it means that you have to leave a few good things (people) behind.
But, sometimes we just have to.

Just think it over and once you've decided, keep reminding yourself that it's all for the best. You may bleed for a while, but you can and you will stand up and shine once more.

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Comment posted on May 23rd, 2006 at 08:33 PM
having a new start has never been bad.

good for you. :)
Comment posted on June 28th, 2006 at 11:52 PM